Another Test??

So this week started off great. Perfect! Wednesday was my 5 year Aniversery! We had a great dinner, and spent time together. Then thursday I go to work and we are told at 10.30 the at two we have a department wide meeting. So as the day goes we hear that the claims depatment laid off 44 people! So now everyone gets nervous and when we finally get to the meeting they tell us hey we need to save money and so we are outsourcing you to the philipines. Becuase their satisfaction rate is 4 % higher than ours. What?! I think we need to redo some surveys. But I went through my grieving process they let have the last hours off. We called Texas Roadhouse and they opened early and we got smashed while the shock and surrealness of all this sets in. On the way home that noght I broke down and cried the whole way home. Where I proceed to drink my misery away. Friday morning with a hangover I literally drag my self to work. Who wants to go after that? Then I was doing ok not good, but after about two hours in the middle of my call I lost it, I don't really know what set me off. But I broke down, my operations expert came down and one of my friends finished my call. I was not able to be on the phone the rest of the day whenever I tried I would cry. So thats what stage two. They sent me outside with a friend to go smoke and when I got back I emailed my bestfriend and asked if her husband was in, I also told her I was not going to make so she asked him to come over, make sure I would be ok. They invited me and husband over for dinner, if anyone is wondering why of all people I would go to my freinds husband 1) she works from home 2) they know us in  and out they are really more then friends we consider each other as part of the family. So really he is one of only a couple of people who got me through that day. Kasey did alot also as she worked really hard to keep me luaghing and kate just tried to keep occupied on something and eating as I hadnt really eaten anything in 24 hours. So my thnaks goes to them. So after work we went over there to our friends and I got to finish my grieving process, she always know just what I need to do, and she let me talk about everything and nothing and we got mad together. We got serious and then we laughed alot about how my last day will go.... Tranfer randomly, to mangaer, to everyone. Silly but it's what I needed. We got home about midnight or so... went to bed. Today? I am doing great I am not grieving, I am focused. I feel I can work and do my job for however long it lasts. Then if I get a job before hand great, if not I have a small severance and then unemaployment I think I will go to school. I realize maybe this is my sign that it's time to go to school, and/ or make some kind of change.
So for every closed door there will be one open, just you have to look with open eyes and a open heart. Becuase we will all find our destiny, some just find it sooner than others.