Another Test??

So this week started off great. Perfect! Wednesday was my 5 year Aniversery! We had a great dinner, and spent time together. Then thursday I go to work and we are told at 10.30 the at two we have a department wide meeting. So as the day goes we hear that the claims depatment laid off 44 people! So now everyone gets nervous and when we finally get to the meeting they tell us hey we need to save money and so we are outsourcing you to the philipines. Becuase their satisfaction rate is 4 % higher than ours. What?! I think we need to redo some surveys. But I went through my grieving process they let have the last hours off. We called Texas Roadhouse and they opened early and we got smashed while the shock and surrealness of all this sets in. On the way home that noght I broke down and cried the whole way home. Where I proceed to drink my misery away. Friday morning with a hangover I literally drag my self to work. Who wants to go after that? Then I was doing ok not good, but after about two hours in the middle of my call I lost it, I don't really know what set me off. But I broke down, my operations expert came down and one of my friends finished my call. I was not able to be on the phone the rest of the day whenever I tried I would cry. So thats what stage two. They sent me outside with a friend to go smoke and when I got back I emailed my bestfriend and asked if her husband was in, I also told her I was not going to make so she asked him to come over, make sure I would be ok. They invited me and husband over for dinner, if anyone is wondering why of all people I would go to my freinds husband 1) she works from home 2) they know us in  and out they are really more then friends we consider each other as part of the family. So really he is one of only a couple of people who got me through that day. Kasey did alot also as she worked really hard to keep me luaghing and kate just tried to keep occupied on something and eating as I hadnt really eaten anything in 24 hours. So my thnaks goes to them. So after work we went over there to our friends and I got to finish my grieving process, she always know just what I need to do, and she let me talk about everything and nothing and we got mad together. We got serious and then we laughed alot about how my last day will go.... Tranfer randomly, to mangaer, to everyone. Silly but it's what I needed. We got home about midnight or so... went to bed. Today? I am doing great I am not grieving, I am focused. I feel I can work and do my job for however long it lasts. Then if I get a job before hand great, if not I have a small severance and then unemaployment I think I will go to school. I realize maybe this is my sign that it's time to go to school, and/ or make some kind of change.
So for every closed door there will be one open, just you have to look with open eyes and a open heart. Becuase we will all find our destiny, some just find it sooner than others.

Easter Day

So Easter did not go as planned, we got up and got ready left and we were alittle early, so we decided to stop and get some coffee. In which my husband managed to drop the entire 24 oz coffee down his white shirt and his slacks. So needless to say we didn't get to go to church. We were really excited about going!! To make it worse I had to call our friends who go with us and tell them that we couldn't go. I kinda felt like I was letting them down, however what can I do. So we went home and hung out for the day. Since it was just us. We just had some cold meat sandwiches and chips for our Easter dinner. But overall it was a nice Sunday.

Day 8 A New Chapter

So yesterday was our first day at the gym. It was really bad for both of us. We were panting like a couple of dogs. However, also I recently started with Partylite Candles and I just turned in my second show. Yay me! Also if anyone wants to look my website the adress is www.partylite.biz/semocandles. It is really awesome. So today I am starting to prepare for our vacation not really a vacation. But we are going to see our families. So I am making lists and making sure everyone know starting to pack. mostly christmas presents and such (there is to many to mail) and starting planning money wise what will be needed. My husband made me a deal I can go to the Botanicle Gardens and he gets to go the Car Museum. What fun right? But being in a marriage is about comprimising, right? So we comprimised and we feel really good about it. So everyone ready for church? We are going to go to our first Sunday School class. We are really excited. Well time to go Talk to you guys later.

Day 5

Ok so I admit it I skipped yesterday, however I have a good reason. It was the WORST day ever. First I over slept which is not a big deal for most days. Then the car started acting funny and I did not think I would be able to pull out of the parking spot. Then I get to work and somehow I got a flat. No I didn’t realize this until I got to work. How you ask? I have no clue, and to top it off, the rim was completely bent. So here I am twenty miles from home stuck at work, no way for my husband to come get me after he gets off. Because the truck is still not fixed completely, and I am broke with no way to have the car fixed. So I start work, can not afford to be late. So taking my call with a very irate person on the other end, my computer decides to go crazy, and I mean crazy which is stressful enough and to have someone who is impatient and yelling into your ear. So I finally get this person to allow me to put them on hold and I lose it. I start crying in the middle of work. I am pretty sure I was committable at this point. So it did eventually calm down. I was able to temporally fix my computer. I end my call, start trying to figure out what to do with my computer and it decides its going to work. Yup 100% working. So then I get mad and start yelling at my computer which really makes me look committable. But in the end my car is again temporally fixed and for free.


But for today it was really great Nielsen, my husband and I got some good quality time, and I made 300.00 bucks. My puppy is quite possibly the cutest thing on this earth.

Day 3

Well it is day 3 and so far so good. It was long a Monday. I am not very fond of Monday's. However tommorow is a tuesday which significantly better in my book. Not really a hole lot happened today woke up late, went work. Answered phones and had my patience tried. Then I came home and we ate supper.Which we made a pizza. Then we hungout played a game watched alittle T.V. Well since I really need to sleep, I will leave with a simple goodnight! (Not really insiring but I maybe tommorow will be great.)

Day 2

Today we went to church, the sermen was about forgiveness to receive forgiveness. I am sitting in the pew between my good friend and my husband. And I realized I have never really forgiven my husband for the mistakes he has made recently. So I am right now in this moment forgiving him one hundred percent. To forgive is to forget and forgetting is the hardest part. And so this week I will be working towards forgiving everyone I have not completely forgiven. So today I end with alittle piece of our sermen:
Luke 23:43 Jesus answered him, "I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise."
May we all join Him in paradise!

Day 1

Hello. Today I have started my vey first blog. I am still trying to figure out everything. But to intrduce myself my name is Jennifer and the reason I have started this blog is simple I am challenging my self over the next year to be a better christian, wife, and an over all better person. I am going to lose weight become healthy and learn to love myself. I am going to go back to church and become closer to God. I am going be out going and meet new poeple. The bigggest of these changes is I am going to renew the love in my relationship with my husband. We have had some real tests this last year, and becuase of them we lost our connection with each other. So to start on that we are having our first date night, now becuase we a common goal of wanting to pay off our debt and become financially secure. We are staying into night we are going to rent a movie and eat a quiet supper. All in all I hope to find myself at the end if this year. My true self!